Beyond the horizon. Beyond the rainbow. Beyond the colours and the clouds. Beyond everything you can see. Beyond it all.
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4 months | Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Its been over two months since i last put up an entry here Its not that i didnt want to, my last two attempts was terrible.....i was typing half way and some error thingy pop up.
shit
Then i just gave up coz im just dont wanna re-type everything i have typed earlier..... im not a recorder you know....i type as i go...sigh
Neways, in a short period of 4 months - 4 months on board - 4 months away from the land - 4 months away from my family...friends... - 4 months away from the life that i was used to..... 4 months
sounds long ? or short ?? i cant make up whether its been long time or it just a short period.... i cant decide
But in this 4 months period - so many things happened....it would usually take a longer to happened on land.
been on an emotional dare devil ride so many things happened whether it was my liking or not whether i wanted it to happened or not
some were things i was waiting for it to happened but when it finally did....its not what i had hope it would be i could be happy one minute and extremely quiet and sad the next....scary rite?
Spend my Birthday on board - i would say it was a sad one coz i miss my family and friends back on land....sigh
Christmas was never really a big deal to me but it was so so....
New Year was great i guess.....had a good countdown.....party...everything..the whole works
Work wise ? hopefully improving...hehehe the process of learning never ends...it goes on and on and on so that how i have to view work as..... a learning process
Personal Life ? So many things happened...i dont even know where to begin Things happened out of my control and expectation Some were good and some could be better and some shouldnt have happened at all
There were days i woke up looking forward to the events that will take place And there were days i woke up feeling so lost....hurt.....in despair i dont even know whats going on.
And the fact that the FAST and EFFECTIVE internet connection here makes it sooo much more EASIER for me to come online and EXPRESS myself
I miss blogging I miss being able to sit down in front of my pc and and vent out everything that i could not say out in person and knowing somewhere somehow there are ppl reading it....ppl who knows me and who dont know me Miss being able to just tell it out - to just let it all out without having to hold back
Im feeling sad today. I have been feeling sad for the past weeks. Something happened that should not have happen happened.......i wish i could tell you what but i probably couldnt ...so do me a favour guys...dont ask ok coz i dont know where or how to begin.
Sometimes i feel like just sitting in my room and cry but i dont know what the heck the tears were for
And the fact that im sick really doesnt make it any better....it started with a sore throat that spread to cough which now has attracted flu and fever.... im just a walking sick fella...so sad eh im taking medications....drinking hot drinks - and yes even when its on a HOT DAY - sigh.....vitamins...you named it...i've got it.
Im looking forward to go home....which was suppose to be in March but will be postponed to April due to work.
Sometimes i just feel like walking out and go straight home....go to my room...on the a/c....the radio...jump onto my bed with all my pillows and hide under the cover. Maybe its all been a dream...a long dream...and now i can finally wake up...........if i could only wake up
It does feel like a dream sometimes a rather foggy hazey dream but at the same time so real.....its kinda scary
With all my rampage nonsense...do you guys even know what im saying ?? coz i think im kinda lost myself.........
Name: A Narrator Age: 28 years has passed - surviving still
~ Nothing is ever what it seems ~
Nothing is ever where its at ~
Do not presume anything ~
Do not judge ~
Be prepared ~
Expect the unexpected ~
Look beyond the horizon ~
Look beyond the colours ~
Ask if you must ~
Watch if you want ~
Listen if you need ~
Seek and perhaps you shall find
Loves
* Love My Parents *
* Love My Sister & Her Husband *
* Love My Brother & His Wife *
* Love to listen Music *
* Love to watch Movies *
* Love to Read *
* Love to Shop *
* Love to Travel*
* Love to Blog *
* Love to take pictures *
* Love Shakespeare's work *
* Love Michael Buble *
* Loved My Dog - Lucky*
Loathes
+ Hate Liars +
+ Hate Pretenders +
+ Hate Hypocrites +
+ Hate Amphibians +
+ Hate Reptiles +
+ Hate Hot Weathers +
+ Hate being in a crowded places +
+ Hate driving behind very slow ppl +
+ Hate Not being able to do what i really want to +